sydney

yes, i know this picture of kate is around the wrong way. stupid stupid bloody stupid aargh!

ah, i've worked it out. each image is taking about 20 minutes to upload, so i'm not changing this one, you get the idea, but the damn program is taking the unedited version (the only edit was to turn it around the right way, i'm not sure why this keeps happening...) anyway, sorry, you know, and stuff.

3 February 2006 3:11pm

Thoroughly enjoying Sydney. particularly enjoyed spending this morning at home... i know i've said this before, but i'm really not a good tourist.

anyway, we're on a train to circular quay to go to the opera house (because liz insists on taking a photo of it - she took to the whole tourist thing a little too eagerly, i believe) then the rocks for drinks with anne in some pub where we can see all the way over the river and stuff. we've booked a table on the roof. after that we're heading to see kate and em and scotty and steve and kier. Yay! we've even put make-up on in celebration of the occasion - although we're still wearing pants and sensible shoes, so we haven't exactly gone all out, but we did make some sort of effort at least. i'm so looking forward to just giving them hugs. seeing them, particularly em and scotty, is like having a little taste of home. i'm not feeling homesick yet, but i figure this is like medicine to ward that off.

sometimes i feel really overwhelmed that i've been so loved and so blessed. the more healing i go through the more i feel that. the healing is hard, and some days i feel like a monster who's just fooling herself into thinking she's a normal, lovable human being, but those days are few and far between now. i wonder if they ever really go away?

i spent a lot of time this morning working on a new project - i'll give you lots of infe when it's nearing completion. it'll be tough but very valuable, so i'm excited about it - but i'm determined not to get overexcited until i work out whether or not i can pull it of. i believe i can.

anne and i have a funny friendship. we've known each other 10 years and don't see each other very often. we're so different in many ways, and we love to disagree because we learn so much from each other. i think it would be fascinating one day to sit down with anne and scotty and discuss religion. doubt it will happen this trip, but one never knows.

one thing i'm totally sick of is being hot then cold then hot then cold - this train is freezing! stupid weather. it shits me.